Having established that I am a worry wort and borderline if not full blown psychotic, I find myself trying desperately to have a vision of the bigger picture. Not a vision of this moment, this situation, this day or even this year but the whole darn thing.
If I were to draw the big picture of the rest of my life, I don't even know what kind of colors I would use or what exactly it is I would draw. I started thinking about my aura and what colors my aura would give off. HA HA HA It's stated that your aura is surpressed by stress, anxiety, fear or any other negative thought. Yea, you can imagine what my picture would look like.
When I look into the future, what I hope for and what I feel at this time aren't even in the realm of alike. It's different and the lesson I am trying to teach myself is that different is ok. I had a conversation with an awesome person at lunch today and what she said nearly brought tears to my eyes. Now, sobbing in Subway over my footlong ham on Italian bread is not cool. I wanted so bad to shed a little tear because a light bulb had gone off in my head and let's face it, that's rare.
She said something like this: What I love about all of us is that we all have some element of different. We all have our quirkiness.
Why wouldn't we want to be quirky? Quirky is distinguishable. Quirky is daring. Some of us are late, some of us are clumsy, some of us are goofy, some of us are clueless, some of us are daydreamers, some of us are outspoken, some of us have goofy hair, goofy clothes, and goofy jokes. Some of us are well different. I not only want to recognize someone's quirky, I want to appreciate it. I want to make them feel like their quirkiness is as normal as the smile on their face...Different? Absolutely Ok? You bet
My Taylor wears mismatched clothes and socks and doesn't care one bit....I LOVE that about her. My Logan is a space cadet but would jump right up to help someone....I LOVE that about him. My Leah is teaching me lessons I never wanted to learn......I LOVE that about her.
My life is different than a year ago.....but it's ok. My future is different than a year ago.....but it's ok. My picture will be quirky and beautiful and I'm going to paint it with fun vibrant hopeful colors!
What's your quirky?
This is a story. A story about a little girl. A little girl named Leah.
It depends on who you ask. Van would say I have a wicked sense of humor, Ryley would say that I'm The Stupidest Person on Earth, Addie would say I'm goofy and Hayden would say that I'm her soul-sister. I would have to say that my quirky is that I'm perfectly content being a social hermit. I love staying at home by myself or with my family. I'd be perfectly ok not going to another school concert or ballgame. I love my kids to pieces, but I am not in love with the idea of how their social calendars are about to turn my life upside down! Weird? Most likely. Do I care? Not in the least!! Embrace the quirky!
ReplyDeleteI think mine are many and mostly obvious.
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